As some of you may or may not know, we had a loss this past July. The baby had stopped growing at around six-seven weeks and my body didn't get the message until week twelve. I had known from the very start of that pregnancy that it wouldn't last and I'm quite certain that Heavenly Father let me know this to help soften the blow. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about that little one. I am so very grateful for the Gospel and for eternal families. I can't put into words how much the Gospel means to me and I cannot imagine going through that experience without it.
Since having a loss, I have been more sensitive to those families surrounding me that also experienced a loss, miscarriage, or infertility problems. As happy as I am for my dearest friends and family who have brought precious children into the world as of late, I cannot express how much it hurt to read on Facebook or hear them in person complain constantly about pregnancy or motherhood. I understand completely that it is the toughest job in the world! And yes, I have caught myself complaining since becoming pregnant. But then I mentally slap myself and think, there are so many women and families out there who have lost a child or cannot get pregnant. These families would willingly put up with all of the downsides of pregnancy and parenthood just for the chance to hold their baby. It's then in those moments that I realize how truly grateful and blessed I am. I have a healthy pregnancy and I love my child already... I am going to appreciate this moment for as long as I possibly can.
We are due on September 11, 2013 and we are SO excited to become parents. I have always wanted to be a mother... that's all I want to be. David is especially excited to become a father. You should hear some of the things he says about become a dad, it is so precious. I know he will be great! Our first doctors appointment went very well. We are so lucky to have such an amazing doctor that gave us reassurance with an ultrasound. The heartbeat was around 150-160! A few weeks later I had some bleeding so she got us in again and much to our surprise, little buttercup was dancing away and waving at us. Everything looks great so far and I am SO thankful. Our next appointment will be next week at 15 1/2 weeks. As far as morning sickness and all that jazz go, I have been sick almost every single day with no signs of it easing up haha. The only day that I went without any sickness was our anniversary on the 18th of February! It was glorious! Even with all of the morning sickness and headaches, I would do it one hundred times over because we love this kid so much already.
